Frustration Cool-Off

I had a great idea for a post...just when I was falling asleep. And now I forgot. Gah.

OK, so to address a few past things:

1. I may have projected a different thing, but I'm not fed up with the form of meditation. It's not my piece of cake, but I can understand that different folks have different strokes. What makes me frustrated is how other people are handling it and behaving. They are not meditating. Even the teacher agrees with me, even saying that we're the class with the worst reception of the meditation--every other class walks with saints, or Jesus, or their Guardian Angel. Our class? Not so much. :-\

2. I checked in my Jesus in the New Testament book--teacher's human fallibility, not the book's error.

3. Here's the actual post. Very long, very rambling.

So, yesterday in Family Life we were talking about "Handling Sexual Desire" (Yeah right. Dad: Tell your teacher that I object; you should not be handling anything of the sort! Me: Hahaha Dad!). We were given two scenarios that we had to give advice on.

Second Scenario was Mark said: The guys I hang out with shout things at the girls in the hall. It's not even flirting, it's embarrassing stuff. The guys say that the girls like it--but I'm uncomfortable with it. But what should I do? They'll think I'm trying to be HOLY or something! I don't want to lose my friends, either.

Me: Be holy, idiot! (I know, kids these days and adults are idiots about being holy sometimes...) If they're not going to respect others, will they respect YOU? You don't have to say anything, just leave! I'm sure the girls would welcome you if you're nice to them.

Other classmates of mine--especially the guys!--gave terrible answers.

Boy1: Don't say anything! The girls won't be as hurt as you'll be if the boys ditch you and start picking on you. (Girls: *crack their knuckles*)

Boy2: Join in.

Boy3: Just stand there--don't say anything.

I mean...seriously. It kind of shows you something about them.

Also, yesterday, I got a comment on my YouTube Channel from a kid in my class. "Why do you have so much religious stuff?" (translated out of chatspeak). My reply was a "Why do you think?" -- also that day in religion, we'd discussed what message our clothes portrayed. I said that people thought I was an uptight, chaste, religious freak and that I was older than I appeared. (It's true. :-|)

He popped up on IM:

Him: but seriously, do u have to have EVERTHING in your life based on religion?
Me: Pretty much.
Him: o..k..a..y
Me: What comes first, the world and yourself, or God? God's first commandment: "Love God above all things". "Do not have false gods" that includes money, sex, society, friends...
Him: woah
Me: And if you haven't noticed, I've got a ton of rock, pop, emo screamo, too.
Him: r u coping and pasting all of this or is this just fast typing?
Me: Fast typing.

It's funny how no one knows this stuff.

You can't be happy with family, friends, LIFE without first being happy with God. When you put God above your relationships, you are ultimately happier with the relationships. People say that they're "Perfectly fine without God, Rachel!" but... If you look at them, you can see that they're NOT. They're not happy at all.

Also yesterday... I've been pondering Martyrdom lately. Yesterday's Life on the Rock (with Fr. Corapi AND a guest speaker! :D) made me think some more.

Lots of people are stepping out and going counter culture and standing up for what they believe, in America" (rough paraphrase)

With this administration it gets you nowhere, fast. BUT IT'S SOMETHING! Let us wear the crown of martyrdom if we have to--but let us WEAR it. Not just stand by and watch. We might not have to die, or be thrown in a cell; or we might have to suffer that. But not all martyrdom is of the physical kind. Being teased, being picked on, being prodded and laughed at and scorned... That's martyrdom too. We're getting it easy; the early Christian martyrs were thrown off cliffs, burned, crucified. But even then, they shouted at their enemies to kill them! "I want to be a martyr!"

"Awh, just go jump off a cliff already!" *grumbles off*

I don't think they got the idea, those Romans. But persecution did come, and they accepted it. What greater honor is there, than to suffer for Our Lord? To unite our sufferings with His. To be ostricized, to be shunned, to sit in a corner with no one there--except Him?

Martyrdom... I've heard it said that this generation has been given the Crown of Marytrdom. I can see that everywhere! For example, even though it's been killed for now; the Connecticut bill. First step towards China-esque communism. In Britain, parents who pull their kids from school for a week to avoid "Homosexuality is A-OK!! :D *rainbows and smilies* Week" are being prosecuted. In California, the sore losers who didn't want Prop 8 to pass are trying to LOWER the status of ALL marriages to "domestict partnership". They couldn't raise homosexual marriage to Marriage--so now they're lowering the opposition. All that will be "marriage" if they get their way, are the freaky little religious unions of those quaint little couples in churches, temples, etc.

Not that I expect THAT to go through. But... Just look around. You see it everywhere.

Accepting the Crown doesn't mean letting yourself get hurt by someone calling the Catholic Church the whore of Babylon. Would you stand by when your mother was called a whore? No! Stand up, fight for Jesus' Bride's honor! Fight for JESUS, period! Don't stand by and think "That wouldn't be very PC". If that's what gets the persecution started, standing up for what you believe in--then so be it. What higher honor is there, than to be a soldier of Christ?

We are soldiers of Christ. The Church is Militant. However...we are not always fighting a knights-and-armor battle. Sometimes it's a battle of pure honor and integrity.

Will you accept the Crown of Martyrdom when it's given to you?